There are some people in life who hide who they truly are because they are afraid of what people might think. Others are so afraid to show their true self because it is so different than who they portray themselves to be and they are afraid that their friends and family will not approve of their way of life. Sadly, I became friends with someone like this recently. This is a girl that I admire and respect very much. But I am sad for her because she is so ashamed of who she really is that she lets very few people get to know her. I had the great pleasure of being one of these people who got to know the real Jessica in the few weeks while I was in Israel. I want to share that story with you now because I think the world deserves to know who Jessica really is and who she is dying to be on the outside. I don’t want my friend to be a closet case anymore. I want her to be able to proudly walk out of her apartment in high heels, makeup, nails manicured, hair sprayed, eyelashes curled, and yes tiara in hair. I want her to be proud of what she really is: girly.
I know what you are thinking, “This can’t be! I mean Jessica is a beautiful women but girly is never a word that I would use to described her.” That is what I thought, my friend, when I first met her. But somehow she finally felt she could open up to me and admit her secret desire. Oh, it started out small. While touring Jerusalem she let slip the phrase, “I can’t wait to go shopping.” Quickly, she tried to cover up her confession with, “I just want to experience some of the Jerusalem culture.” At first I believed her. But then later that night while we were getting ready for bed at the hostel I heard her say under her breath, “I would kill for a french manicure right about now.” Well, you can imagine my surprise. I even thought I misunderstood her. But there was no mistake in what she had said. Then other things began to make sense. The way she would sit in front of the mirror fixing her hair every morning before the dig, biking all the time to keep up her figure, and bringing along the movie Pride and Prejudice. It was all clear to me now, Jessica was secretly really girly! After a sleepless night of much deliberation I knew I had to confront her. The next morning I asked Jessica if I could talk with her. I told her what I overheard and my suspicions. Right away she denied it. But after I persisted for some time she broke down. “Ok, ok, you got me! I love puppies, flowers, the color pink, makeup, poems, movies with Meg Ryan, soap operas, shoes, purses, doing my nail, and chocolate! I love being girly!” I must admit I was surprised. I did not know her secret ran this deep but like a good friend I told her that she did not have to hide her true self around me anymore.
The next week was full of talks about boys, what colors looked best on her during the summer compared with the fall season, her favorite shopping malls, and exercise tips. I must say it was all a little tiring on my part but I was proud of her for showing me her true self. I am sharing this with the world now (Yes, this blog is an international read) because everyone needs to know who Jessica really is. Jessica if you are reading this don’t be mad. Take off your mud mask, put on your Stiletto heels, hike up that mini skirt, and show the world who you truly are. The Jessica that I got to know in Israel. The frilly girly you.